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July 28 finally...Finally decided to update my blog... but don't really have much to say...
Currently I'm in love with the following things:
- My beautiful, always accurate, very sharp and good looking Canon 450d camera. It's by the far the best camera I've ever had. Better than your Canon 400d, and better than your Nikon d60... :P
- Anything organic and natural, namely anything from Jurlique (I've tried the Biodynamic Beauty Treatment and the Purifying Foaming Cleanser and mum's using the rosewater mist and the mask, all amazing stuff), and also Juice Beauty Exfoliating Cleanser and Green Apple Mask.
- Bloom lip stain, beautiful colour, matches with my OPI Designer Series in Treasure.
- My Saba Steel Grey trench...
- And most importantly, all the photos my DBT and I took! Amazing stuff... will post in facebook... June 19 Another Tuesday morning...It's exactly 7.33am. The train passes promptly on the tracks across the Southbank riverside towards Flinders Street station. The morning sun on another ordinary Melbourne winter day shines through the hazy and cold morning breeze, making the skyscrapers along Southbank look strikingly beautiful.
A "Moving Melbourne through Art" poster on the wall in the train carriage reads "2050, the projector screen at someone's funeral reads 'No Signal'." The author's name was right underneath but it was way too small to see clearly from where I was sitting. Another reads "2050, autumn rain --- Victoria Park weeps of rust". Then again, another: "2050, nursing home filled with senior citizens, with eyebrow piercings."
Walking through the underground tunnels of the station towards Degraves Street, a busker is already busy playing with his guitar and singing loudly. The same man I see every day. Today I gave him a silver coin, but he did not say "thanks". I honestly wanted to give him a gold one but I did not have any on me. I heard him say "thanks" to the next kind contributor. I decide not to give him anything any more next time. Or am I just too narrow-minded?
An idyllic and uneventful morning one would imagine, but is it hiding something far more fearful beneath the surface?
I read the news, I think about many tragic events and other's misfortunes, and I'm so glad that I have found you... May 07 Another useless complaint...Went to work on Tuesday, farken tired and farken feels like I've been ripped off. I suppose it's not easy, it's not work if you don't get stressed and tired at the end of the day. But I mean I should deserve more money for my stress and tiredness and all the brain work I've contributed...
Oh well, this is probably just a stepping stone for me to get onto something better, so work hard and leave the best impression and try to learn as much as I can I guess. Just like one of the guys from the interviews I went to, I should absorb information like a sponge.
Anyway, after I get my first pay, I'm so gonna spoil myself and my parents, and if I have some money left still, I might get my bubsy something... hahaha... May 04 Finally...Finally I found myself a somewhat decent job. At least I'm working in an office, at least I'm doing design work so I don't have to feel sorry about wasting all those years I've spent in the past learning painting and drawing, and at least I can get a small regular income every week. But deep down, I'm still not content. It's not something I love, I love my IT studies, but where do I go to find somewhere that is not only a large organisation, but also gives good pay and doesn't mind employing someone with minimal experience?
I guess the problem is I haven't been searching for jobs for that long. I hope to one day find the dream job that I've always wanted, so I can love my work and bring valuable ideas to the people around me. These days I still feel inadequate, depressed, stressed and alone. I look around me, I realised that I'm really just not that bright and I'm very behind in life. What's the use of having theoretical knowledge when you can't use it to earn yourself money? I'd rather be ignorant and dumb but earn big bucks, at least that way all you have to worry about is try to keep your job. I don't think my life can get any more desolate than what I'm going through right now.
I tell myself, work harder, leave a good impression, and then use this job as a stepping stone to get onto something better. But with the future seemingly so far away and so unpredictable, it is hard for me to not lose my motivation and hope that I will eventually become established and content with life.
Fingers crossed for me to get more interviews and better offers soon... April 21 Still waiting...Still waiting for my second package from ebay... still waiting for replies from all the jobs I applied... still waiting... for many things...
But at least I got this today.
A very cute Ballet Slippers charm from Juicy Couture... I love it. April 19 I don't...If you don't love me any more, I don't know if I'll ever be able to love another. But not being able to love is still OK, not being able to be independent and live alone is the part that's not OK.
我想我是放弃了。也许早在很久以前我就已经不怀什么希望，只是偶然还带着侥幸的心理艰难地维持着。让我哭的男人不值得我爱，但是为什么每次我总是爱上会使我哭的人。
April 15 Yay!Woohoo... my package from ebay finally arrived today and it was exactly what I had expected. A MAC Novel Twist makeup bag and brushes set. It was such a bargain! During last Christmas when it came out, it was retailing for $120 and it was literally sold a few days later. I got it for only $35 plus $7 for delivery. I feel so happy, hehe. Now all I gotta wait for is my next and final package of my 24 nail art nail polish pens. hehe...
The bottom ones... April 06 another one...Every now and then I get this urge to post a blog or two and read other people's blogs, even if the blogger hasn't posted anything in years. For example, I read DBT's old blog sometimes, and every time I read it, I get a different feeling. It's a good way to start your stalking process I reckon... :P Bubsy's introduced me to a lot of things along the 11 or so months we've been together, some good, mostly bad... haha... No, no, I'm just joking, seriously. I never used to have chocolate ice creams, now I get cravings for it every few days. I never knew instant Mi Goreng tasted so good and now I understand why my cousin can have it everyday for his late breakfast/early lunch. I never knew Family Guy and American Dad were so funny and Futurama was just my kinda geeky, nerdy cartoon comedy. I never knew a Friday night football game can be so addictive even after one whole season gone I'm still craving to go to another one, well, this season I definitely must go. I never thought love can be so addictive... On another note, life has been good these two weeks. I've upgraded my PC, got a kickass 3DMark06 score now, but there's a new version of 3DMark out now, so my score will be lower in that one I reckon. It's now a piece of cake to run millions of applications altogether and not get a single glitch... We went to the Anh Do standup show at the Comedy Festival and boy, was it great! He surely makes us Asians feel proud. He makes me think that I've got a sense of humour too, which, I actually don't have. Sleep time... March 19 sad...I can't stand using this slow laptop and I miss my pc. But it looks like I'll have to live with this for a while until I have enough to buy new parts. aiiii...
I'm so sad that I'm not independent enough. Maybe it's time to make some changes and leave some things behind so I can start fresh again...
Nothing's really going my way at the moment, that's probably why I've been posting here so much... March 18 Time for some pc upgradingTime to upgrade my pc soon... hehe... These are the specs I've been looking at:
Mobo: Asus P5KC or P5K-E with wifi;
CPU: Core 2 Duo E8200 Wolfdale over the old E6750 Conroe; hehe, its benchmarked just a bit over the Conroe;
RAM: some quality 2G of RAM, 800 or higher.
hehe, these specs will leave me some room to include more ram and a better graphics card for later, while I can still do heaps of overclocking on the Asus mobo for now... mehehehhe, can't wait... February 24 I miss my Mubsy...Someone once said "the joy in life is not in hearing the words 'I love you', but in being lucky enough to say them".
So beautiful... to all the lucky girls and boys out there who are lucky enough to be able to say those three little but magic words: have faith and don't ever give up. February 19 ...I remember I read a story somewhere...
"If I could see the places you've once been, if I could breathe the air you've once breathed, and if I could walk the paths you've once walked, then nothing else will matter any more..."
February 18 I think I'm the luckiest girl on earth...After reading my friend's blog I think I truly realised how lucky we were to have a good family, parents who cared about us, boyfriends who loved us and friends who accepted us for who we are. Just like she said, what's the point of forcing him to lavish lots of presents for you on Valentine's Day when he buys you little but sweet things almost every week. I even receive spending money every week because bubsy is worried about me starving to death seeing what a big pig I am. Although it's not a lot, I'm still over the moon that he has the thought about filling up my wallet just for those occasional times when I need to buy something and he wasn't there to pay for me. No wonder he says his single wage isn't enough to support both of us, because I'm such a big spender.
So this is how we spent Valentine's Day - we didn't meet. haha... we met on Wednesday night instead to go to the Vic Market night market, again, because we both fell in love with that blue heaven thick shake. Funny how such a little cup of sweetness can make 2 ppl so happy. He gave me a bottle of perfume, the one I always wanted but never got a chance to buy. I gave him a pair of sheepskin slippers so he can throw away the ugly purple furry old woman's slippers at home. I also made him a simple card in Flash, after all, we're both makeshift kinda people. He likes to fiddle around with his car, home, and other mechanical stuff, and I like to fiddle around with artistic stuff like drawings and paintings and that... In another week or so, I'm going to be showered with gifts again because my one is going to the Philippines on Sat and coming back the Sunday after... I'm so excited about receiving I-dont-know-what-I'm-gonna-receive.
Congrats to all those ppl who got engaged or married on Valentine's Day. It was probably the most obvious day to propose and probably isn't that much of a big surprise, but hey, sometimes we don't want too many surprises in life, right? February 12 hehe...It's pretty unhealthy that I keep on posting upsetting blogs on here and then delete them afterwards... :P But at least I'm in a good mood now so I don't care what people think... :P
Bubzy got me this perfume that I wanted for a long time, and it also came in a gift pack with a cute Escada bag and a generous tube of heavenly smelling body lotion... Wow, I sure feel pampered... I think mum was right, every time we argue, it's probably 90% my fault and 10% of him not being patient and forgiving enough and not wanting to give in...
Went around with his cousin (uncle more precisely) and his wife/gf who came from the Philippines yesterday. Took an extended tour around Crown which involved standing and waiting around most of the time. They visited the LV shop which I never knew where it was until yesterday but I decided to give it a miss because I really couldn't care less about those thousands of dollars rich people's accessories... Sure they do look nice but I think my own Furla bag means a lot more to me than a 3 thousand dollar LV bag. It has so much more sentimental value to me that I think I'll probably never throw away that bag even if it breaks down into pieces. It was from that bag that I realised when someone really cares about you he wouldn't care how much something costed, he'll get it for you just to see that smile on your face. The joy of giving, he told me that day... Even to this day, I look at the bag and I think about everything he's said to me and all those things he's bought me, I still cant help but smile and think how lucky I've been... I remembered that people used to tell me that a five hundred dollar bag is a pretty big call for someone who's only been together for a few weeks, I reckon that it was a pretty big call too... but I'm so glad that he made that call because he showed me that he isn't afraid and is ready to give his full...
OK, no more touchy feely stuff... I'm supposed to learn to be firm and independent this year... that was one of my new year resolutions... January 30 According to RSVP...According to RSVP:
A single woman will meet 6000 men in her life,
2/3 will be too old or too young,
of the rest, 39% will be married,
18% will be gay,
11% will have unacceptable haircuts,
3% will be over compensating,
and 17% are just tools,
So beat the odds with RSVP... Pretty accurate and true I must admit, but thank god I found my one out of those 240 potentials... hehe... Do you remember...Looking back at my old pictures I suddenly remembered this Escada perfume that I really wanted to buy during the year end of 2006 and the start of 2007. I've always been so crazy about Escada perfumes, Pacific Paradise, Ibiza Hippie, Rockin' Rio, Island Kiss, all of them smelt sooooo fruity and yummy. This one was no exception. Even the name sounds so yum --- Sunset Heat. I remembered when it was coming out during December 2006 you also get a free beach towel with the purchase. Too bad I left during November to go to Shanghai, and then when I finally came back in February other things got the better of me and this beautiful smelling scent was moved towards the bottom of my priorities list. Now looking at the photo, I suddenly want it again. And perfume connection is only selling it for $30 now!!! My God!
Here's the pic again.
MAC FafiJust got my eyes set on this new MAC collection named Fafi. Man, another year of MAC addiction. They're not out yet but I just saw some leaked photos online and they look absolutely fab. I'm so hooked onto the powder and the little cute cosmetic case. They just look way too good to let go... Have to get them no matter how... I guess I'll try not to spend anything and save up for it in March. They're debuting in America in Feb so at least I can get a rough idea of the prices and see what everyone says about them.
Great! Can't wait. Here're some photos...
TD Frenzy...Lately I've been pretty hopelessly addicted to Warcraft TDs that I'm not really spending any time on anything else. Thus the reason for not posting for so long because I'm suffering from writer's block. Can't really justify myself as a writer, can I, considering I haven not made any achievements as a writer yet.
We watched Juno over the long weekend. It was a pretty smart and funny movie even though the theme was meant to be serious. Didn't expected a movie about teenage pregnancy would be so light-hearted and upbeat. Initially I thought it was probably one of those weird movies that no one will go and see, but surprisingly the cinema was pretty packed, and mostly asian too. Maybe it's 'cos we went to Melbourne Central.
I've recently acquired the Chanel Teint Innocence foundation into my personal stash. I've wanted it for quite some time so I'm very thrilled now that I finally got it and it works so much better than my old one. Thanks darling for getting it for me. I've also acquired more than enough nail care products too, more I need I must admit. I guess I'll keep them for emergencies. Who knows, one day there're might be a shortage of nail products and I wouldn't be left to suffer the aftermath. While we're on the topic about product shortage, reports have it that some bored dude on Facebook is promoting people to panic buy carrots on May 16 to create a world shortage of carrots. So far the group has 600 patriots (half of them probably will NOT panic buy carrots on the day). Let's see what happens. If I'm free, I shall stand in my local safeway and observe the carrot section.
Valentine's Day is coming up soon. For some stupid reason, I'm actually excited about receiving nothing (I told my one not to buy me anything). I'll probably complain if I really didn't receive anything in the end. I just know I don't want flowers, I'm sick of roses only, I've got too many bottles of their rose oils that I don't know how to finish, too many little bags of pot pourri that I don't know where to place, and too many mini boxes of Lindt that I don't know whether to eat myself or to give out.
Can't wait to go the Comedy Festival this year again, will definitely wanna see Lawrence Leung again. That place has a special meaning for us.
Hehe, so jealous of L's new Gucci wallet, it looks so chic... :P Can't wait to stash my own one day... January 11 My kind of...My kind of music --- something I can sing along while driving, something I can rock and shake my head to like a mad woman, something that can make my tears fall like the summer rain...
My kind of life --- where I can do whatever I want to do and experience everything known to man at least once, where I'm able to do what I'm good at and be successful and contribute to the world in my own way...
My kind of love --- is how I'm being loved at the moment...
My kind of man --- is exactly like the man I'm with right now...
So in other words, I'm feeling pretty content... December 04 Cheap Thrills...Bubz got me a Logitech joypad over the weekend, 27 bucks... I haven't had sooo much fun from something this cheap for a long time. I miss my bubz now. That joypad can be my xmas pressie. At the moment, I'm aiming to finish this Marvel game we used to play on the PS3, and which I now play on the PC. At this stage, I'm still playing the levels we've already finished on the PS, don't know how many more levels are left but I'm aiming to finish it b4 xmas. This way, bubz can use his PS3 for his NBA game. I have to say, that NBA game is also mad... but it's more fun with 2 people.
Cousin is bring over his puppy dog some time this week. We're looking after it for the summer while he goes back to Shanghai. Hehe, it'll be fun. I love pups.
Bathroom renovation is going to start tmr morning, so I have to sleep now to make sure I get up b4 those guys come. Oh, well, hopefully I can get a job soon so I won't need to be at home and look awkward. |
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